This is what I retreat to when reality isn’t working out so
well. This can take place in a variety of forms. Sometimes my inner fangirl kicks
in and I just become obsessive with one of my fandoms (Supernatural and Dean,
OUaT and Hook or Sherif Graham, Sherlock and Sherlock or Watson, Almost Human
and Aiden, Firefly and Mal, etc). Other times I fall into another short lived
celebrity obsession. The most recent ones have been going back and forth
between Chris Thile and Sean Watkins, both of Nickel Creek, in light of the
concert I’m attending this weekend. I know this habit isn’t at all healthy, but
it gets me through when I’m feeling lonely. However, today another old fantasy
kicked in.
There is an old friend I’ve had for quite some time. A sweet
guy, and socially awkward in that geeky way that everyone knows I find irresistible.
We fall out of contact for months on end sometimes, but reconnected a few weeks
ago. This never ends well, I end up having feelings that he just can’t return. Then
he hugged me. I’m a mess. *sigh*
